This morning I was getting ready to go out and run some errands, as I was standing in my daughters bathroom getting ready to leave I looked in the mirror for a very long time. I noticed my eyes looked droopy, my face a little more saggy, I felt my heart a little more heavy and I just felt more alone...I thought about how life feels to me now and about this new normal that I am facing...I thought to myself...I can do this! I took a deep breath and I wondered if I was just saying that out of desperation or if I really meant that...I smiled....
I have asked myself a million times since my daughter went to heaven what I can do to keep her alive in everyone's hearts that knew her...I think I have finally come to the conclusion that she wont be forgotten by those that loved her so how can I bring her spirit alive to those that didn't know her at all. It's talking about her that will do that and what she meant to me and those that knew her...She was a Hero in every sense of the word...She was also my Heart, my reason for being here, therefore making if so difficult to find out within what I am to do with myself now that she is gone....I am just trying to make it through one day at a time...