This morning I took a long walk to refresh. It worked. I feel wonderful now and I am ready to make some soap for a customer and then work on some booties that I am making...I know that today will be a day like none other...

This morning I was getting ready to go out and run some errands, as I was standing in my daughters bathroom getting ready to leave I looked in the mirror for a very long time. I noticed my eyes looked droopy, my face a little more saggy, I felt my heart a little more heavy and I just felt more alone...I thought about how life feels to me now and about this new normal that I am facing...I thought to myself...I can do this! I took a deep breath and I wondered if I was just saying that out of desperation or if I really meant that...I smiled....
I have asked myself a million times since my daughter went to heaven what I can do to keep her alive in everyone's hearts that knew her...I think I have finally come to the conclusion that she wont be forgotten by those that loved her so how can I bring her spirit alive to those that didn't know her at all. It's talking about her that will do that and what she meant to me and those that knew her...She was a Hero in every sense of the word...She was also my Heart, my reason for being here, therefore making if so difficult to find out within what I am to do with myself now that she is gone....I am just trying to make it through one day at a time...

My day

Well, I have made it through another day, haven't crafted much today as I was so busy running around. I will be doing the same tomorrow but I am going to go to Joanns Fabrics so I can pick up a knitting loom and a couple of other things that I have wanted to get...It seems that every time I sit down to do something I am also missing something that I need....I hope to take care of that tomorrow...Well, Its time to finish up some booties that I am working on and will post a picture tomorrow when I get home after running around in the morning....Nite Nite everyone...

One of my paper quilling pictures

A little about me

I am just starting this blog and as I am not so sure where to go with this, so I will have to be honest and tell you that I am pretty sure it will be a work in progress. So, please be patient with me.
 About Me:
I am a mom who just lost my daughter and this blog will be on behalf of her.I am not a journalist, or a writer, or anyone professional, just a mom that spent my life loving and taking care of my precious and very sick daughter...
She went to be with the lord on September 29, 2011 RIP Heather Marie, forever 24....
I love to craft and am now crafting again so that I can do some fundraising for her disease Tuberous Sclerosis and LAM...I hope that you will join me along this journey of crafting to heal.....My heart hurts something terrible and my spirit is broken. This will be a journey to find myself again and learn what it is like to go on without her. I miss her so much...